Thought is free

Why?

I just have an amazing weekend ahead of me.

Friday Brandon is coming to play Ultimate with me!

Now I get to spend money on gas to drive down to MC :D

I get to watch one of my best friends play in a double header.

Then I get to go and watch THE AVENGERS with two more of my best friends.

After that is a slumber party, I’m bringin a bunch of fruit and a couple movies.

Saturday I’m going on what is said to be an amazing hike.

Then going to a family Barbecue.

After that I am going on a dinner date for prom with one of my best friends. 

Sunday morning is Church.

I am giving my mom her present and she is going to be super surprized.

Then I am going to take her to Seven Feathers, I wonder if my dad is.. crap, he always does that.. Need a new place to take my mom! I’ll ask her :)

Monday morning is driving back to Corvallis to go to class, but hey its a fun one!

This can’t happen yet.. and not for a long time.

This is so funny..

This exactly signifies Brandon and I.

It was our 2 year anniversary (: 

But he didn’t forget.

How do you live with out someone who has given you everything.

Who is the reason you breath.

I’m scared.

They can’t be ready unless I’m ready, it’s not fair, because I never will be.

I get treated like shit, but take it.

They don’t know what I’m going through.

They don’t know my story.

But they make my life a living hell when I don’t purpously do anything to them.

I’m just trying to live, and to figure out how I am supposed to do this.

How am I supposed to let go when I’m not ready…

greenbeansplease:

“That’s one small step for man, one giant leap for slothkind”

I’m so happy I have the ability to save up money.

I now have healthy food.  

It should last for a while since I was planning on buying more groceries at first with said money that was saved up.

Now I can use the rest of the money for gas >.<

I am trying to be healthy. I am trying to get fit. But gas prices made my plan go to SHIT!

Since before Christmas break I have been trying to make healthier choices.  The exercising part is easy all I have to do is park a mile away from class so I end up walking about 4 miles a day.  I have also been doing p90x, though not as faithfully as I wish, and doing my own little set of stairs at the parking garage.

NOW.

Gas prices have gone up 30 cents in the last week.  This is really killing my healthy choice plan.  It now costs 50 to fill my tank up which I have to fill every 2 weeks.  I would like to take public transit more often, I like the idea of being more green, though its hard to do things like that when the bus is 45 mins late and not very reliable.  Anyway, gas going up also means that it is harder to buy food since school > food.  I can’t be healthy if I am not eating though.

I know everyone is into the whole “there are all shapes and sizes” and “love your body no matter what” whatever kind of slogans are out there but really you shouldn’t love your body if your 50 pounds over weight, it really is a serious health risk.  I believe that the body campaigns are deeper than that.  I believe that they try to get you to love your body as it is now so you can change it for the better.  But people don’t think like I do.

Also, because I do not  get enough hours at work I am NOT ELIGIBLE for food stamps, which would make my entire year.  I know exactly what I would buy if I had them too.  Odwalla would be at the top of my list, their ‘naked’ drinks are so tasty. But no, it should be amazing to them that I even have a job and also go to school.  People complain about there not being enough jobs out there when in reality there is, they just won’t take themselves out of their comfort zone and do something that is ‘hard’ and bitch about it all the time then quit… whew went off topic..

I’m done blabbering after this conclusion.  I’m pretty sure I hit eating healthy, exercise, gas prices, jobs, and school topics.  Those are all connected in a sick and twisted way. 

(via ravenclawboys)

YES

I was brought to tears by a patient of mine. He had just had very major surgery the day previous. His wife and her friend came in and stayed for about 2 hours. They were 87 and 85(he is 84) Very mobile and strong not to mention very ‘there’ i could tell they were best friends. My patient introduced me and told me this is my girlfriend and this is my wife my beautiful wife while touching her face and smiling at her. He had us all laughing. Later his friend and his wife came in and he was so surprised. These people had flown across 9 states to see him. He held his friends hands the whole time. I noticed his guy friend shed a silent tear, i could tell he was so hurt seeing his friend in such a weak state trying to keep the atmosphere alive and humorous. No one noticed this tear but I. After his friends left … He said to me “shake my hand” so i took his hand “do you feel an electric current?” I said no “just because you can’t feel it doesn’t mean your not getting it. I’m passing it through you and whether you feel it or not your getting it. Now when you get home I want you to give your dad a real hug and say i love you and i know i don’t tell you enough” he gave my hand a final squeeze before letting it go and his eyes welled up with tears but they didn’t break the barrier. I sat back down and kept replaying it. Shed a couple tears quietly. I feel like he knows whats going on for some reason.(This was all written on my phone usually I care about grammar and punctuation but right now i don’t)  ADDING MORE… every time I touched him after this I was shocked, and not a little one, they hurt!

I’m back at home.

Went to see one of my best friends play ball, they won woot woot!

Made my mom and Oregon duck cake for her surprise party.

She was surprised that we got her a Lamichael jersey =]

Got new tires.

Played Disc golf with my brother for 2 rounds at Lawson’s Bar.

Asked 4 friends to hang out.

Bought a mini hookah.

Smoked alone.

Now I’m still sitting alone at my parents house.

Waiting..

I like finding funny pictures and putting them on here.. its nice after having written about all the stupid things I go through to have a laugh and this is how I share a chuckle with you 

This is my dad.. haha He is pretty fast.

yeppp… you do it too!